The Year of Self-Healing

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“You are what you choose to be in life and it starts with knowing who you truly are.” – Master Umesh H. Nandwani

The beginning of my spiritual journey was not full of roses. It was full of tears and heartache. In my attempt to find an alternative remedy to my health issues, I participated in a wellness event called ALIVE FEST in August 2018 in Surabaya, organized by The Golden Space Indonesia. I remember crying uncontrollably and almost nonstop that day. I was reminded of all the burdens, sadness, and the junk that I have kept in my heart for almost 40 years of my life. It was undeniably a heart-opening experience and from that moment on, I started my healing journey. All of the speakers who shared their incredible journey blew me away. I didn’t often come across vulnerable, real, and authentic human beings so I found them special, refreshing, and inspiring.

I was searching for Nirvana so I could be free from the excruciating and paralyzing pain and my health issues. But after the heart-opening experience came the "heart surgery". Fast forward to February 2019, I joined "Awaken ~ the Divine You®" program in Jakarta, conducted by Master Umesh H. Nandwani, the founder of The Golden Space Worldwide. For seven days, my heart was opened, stretched, and expanded so I could move from being numb to start feeling again. There were moments of pain, heartaches, and resistance as I let go of old emotions that no longer served me. But there were also moments of inner peace, magic, and bliss that I cherish until now. It felt like going through a rebirth cycle and I slowly rediscovered my true and divine self. It was soul searching, soul awakening, and transformational and I knew that my life would never be the same again.

My next journey took me to Phuket as I learned from Master Umesh how to speak from my heart during the Instructor’s Course Certification Level 1 in August 2019. Having always used my brain and my mind to speak and present for work, this course challenged me to surrender my thoughts, to be vulnerable, and to share my true and authentic self. Most essentially, I learn to trust my heart and my soul again. Soul reconnection has given me many blessings during this course. My creative juice was flowing and I started writing again and penned (literally!) the first chapter of "Anjali – the Sumatran Tigress". I was also blessed with the magic of interconnectedness or oneness and more healing. As I listened to my soul family share their healing stories, I healed. And as I shared mine, they healed.

"Awaken ~ the Divine You®" Nepal Retreat in November 2019 was a journey of going and coming home. In the sacred land of Nepal, I was surrounded by a profound sense of familiarity and belongingness to the land, the people, my spiritual guru Master Umesh, and my soul family. The healing and awakening went to a deeper level as I faced, resolved my anger and my trust issue with God, and reconciled with the Creator. After burning with the flames of my fury, the ash left me with the feelings of serenity and gratitude for all the lessons in my life and I could feel the Divine presence and power once again. The trip was also a special reunion with Mother Earth or Gaia and the universe or cosmos. I felt truly privileged and humbled to be part of the Himalayas and especially the Sacred Mother Mount Everest and their divine energy. My heart was widely opened, healed, and blossomed as I found myself and felt home again.

And here I am after over a year of practicing constant meditation, mindfulness, and heartfulness and joining numerous meditation classes, private sessions, spiritual workshops, courses, and retreats at The Golden Space and beyond. Walking the path of spirituality and doing inner or shadow work can be at times overwhelming and exhausting but it has been truly fulfilling and enlightening. The journey of self-reflection, life reflection, letting go of the past, living in the moment, moving forward, going with the flow, finding my true, inner, higher self, and the rediscovery of my life purpose has been miraculous. I feel magical moments of awareness, realizations, acceptance, surrender, letting go, trust, embrace, and self-love. I feel the alignment, balance, and wholeness of my mind, my body, my soul, and my spirit. I feel infinite, good health, abundance, gratitude, peace, harmony, bliss, liberation, and unconditional love. Mind you, I don’t feel positivity or these positive feelings all the times as I am a work in progress but I can tap, reconnect, and recreate these energies because now I remember what they feel like. Most of all, I am grateful for interconnectedness and oneness with God, the universe, Mother Gaia, myself, and my soul family and I don’t want to be separated from them ever again.
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* This post is dedicated especially to my beloved spiritual Guru, Master Umesh H. Nandwani, my seniors and mentors, and my soul family at the Golden Space Worldwide. It’s all because of Me and You that I finally found HOME. I Love You. I Love You. I Love You.

** The Golden Space is a leading purpose-driven global holistic health & wellness organization, with the mission of transforming lives and to bring culture of oneness into the world. Meditations and programs are non-religious and universal. Meditate, Heal, and Transform Your Life with The Golden Space Indonesia and The Golden Space Global!

 *** Thank you, The Golden Space Indonesia, for giving me the opportunities to share my journey at your life-changing events. (Posters below)

**** And to celebrate this remarkable journey, I’d like to share a popular Nepalese folk song that I come to love so much. Please take the time to enjoy and dance to this song: "Resham Firiri’" by Kali Prasad Baskota. 

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First drafted in Jakarta in March 25, 2020.

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